Feelings are not facts

Today was weigh in day and I really didn't want to go. I still haven't gotten a swimsuit so I haven't been getting the exercise lately that I normally get. I have gotten out and did some walking but in comparison to what I have been doing it just didn't seem like enough.

I woke up on this gray, cloudy, misty day feeling very tired and "fat". The alarm went off and I thought it was part of my dream. When I realized it wasn't I hurried and turned it off and then made myself get out of bed. And as I do every morning I stepped onto the scale. My scale very rarely ever shows the same weight twice in a row so I have a general idea of my weight, but not precise. The weight reflected back to me was not the weight I was feeling. It was showing the same weight as last week but I was feeling so much heavier.

Anyways, I got ready and made my way to my weekly Weight Watcher meeting. Feeling fat, feeling bloated and feeling extremely tired I stepped onto the scale and once again I am shown that I can not base reality on my feelings. Because in reality I did lose -1.0 pound this week. But based on what I am feeling I would have said I gained at least 5 pds.

There is more I'd like to ponder on in regards to feelings vs. facts but honestly, I am too tired to think straight and am off to take a nap. Once I wrap my brain around this then maybe I'll be able to share.

A smaller pants size

A month ago I was blessed with some smaller sized clothing from a friend. Today I realized that I am in need of new, smaller sized pants. So, while I was out with the family I tried on some pants.

The last time I tried on pants in Wal-mart, I wore a size 24-26. And I could barely get them buttoned. Actually I was so disgusted because this was the largest size they carried and I couldn't believe they almost didn't fit.

Well tonight I grabbed a couple of size 20 jeans. Took them into the fitting room and tried them on. When I first unfolded the pants my first thought was....these are too small...they don't look like they will come up past my thighs....I was so convinced, I almost didn't even try them on....

But I put both feet in and pulled...and viola....I got them past my thighs and around my hips and buttoned. Whoo-hoo!! But then I thought....these are the stretchy kind and they just fit...but I am losing weight and I'll be out of these in a flash....and I really don't have the money to buy lots of clothing....so, I decided to try on a size 18 with the thought that even if they are a little small, I'll be wearing them soon.

Out I go, giving the size 20 to the lady and proceeding to find some size 18's. Once back in the fitting room I was a bit apprehensive about trying them on because I didn't want to discourage myself if they were way too small.

But instead of being too small they were only a teeny, tiney bit snug. Then I stood in front of the mirror and did a happy shuffle. I would have squeeled with glee out loud but since I didn't want to scare anyone I just squeeled in my heart.

Now, when I can fit into a size 18 that are not stretchy....well that will be newsworthy too....

Progress Picture for November

I weighed in on Saturday and was shocked when they told me I lost -3.8 pds. I was expecting around a half a pound but I'll take a three pound loss any week.

I have now lost a total of 40 pds. on Weight Watcher's and a total of 47 pounds from the beginning of trying to lose weight.

Here is my November progress picture as well as last months picture. One thing is for sure...I need to teach my daughter how to take a picture...:-) And these pictures are odd because I look thinner in my heavier picture. I'm going to have to figure out a better way of documenting my progress....hmmmmmm

More weight bites the dust

I am happy to say that my suit held up at the Natatorium but sad to say that it was the last time I could wear the bottoms. They have now found a new home in our trash can.

And "Aunt Flo" came to visit so working out in water isn't an option right now. Looks like I will be doing lots more walking....glad the weather is so nice!! I might even get my bike out cause it's not as hard on my joints. Either way, I do have other types of exercise I can do until I get a new suit.

Saturday was my weigh in day and I am happy to report that another -2.8 pounds has left me. And I also made it to my 16th week which means I received special recognition and a charm. The disk represents 25 pounds.

A dilemma

Now, in the scope of life and all the issues I could have, what I am about to post is actually pretty minor. But in my trying to lose weight life it is a big problem.

One of the ways I get in my exercise is to go to the Natatorium and participate in their water aerobic classes. And the most important thing you need to wear is what's causing my dilemma.

I need a new swimsuit. I bought a swimsuit three years ago that lasted me till this summer. I am now on my 3rd swimsuit. The chlorine is killing them.

I spoke with my instructor to see how she keeps hers from falling apart and she told me about a website where I could go and order a swimsuit that will hold up in chlorine. Yay!!

So, I went there and I like that they are suits designed for exercise and not flaunting body parts. The cost isn't too bad but right now it might as well be $1000. I am learning more and more to live by faith and this is one of those times.

I don't know how many more times I can go swim before my suit exposes parts of my anatomy that was not meant to be seen in public. It makes me nervous. But working out in the water is better on my joints right now and I really need the exercise.

So....how long till this suit totally gives out? Do I keep up my exercise schedule and risk exposure or do I stop doing the water aerobics until I can get a new suit? I am leaning towards the second option but I am taking my children to the Natatorium for p.e. tomorrow. I really want to enjoy it with them instead of watching on the sidelines. Pray I can get at least one more wear out of this suit.

A new goal

In Weight Watcher's you are given two goals initially. First is 5% of your body weight and the second is 10%. After you reach your 10% it is then up to you to pick your next goal. Some choose 5 pds. , some less and some more. I've been pondering what my next goal should be.

And I've come to a decision....

My next goal is to lose another 10%. That means I need to lose 27 pounds to meet that goal. And I have the holidays to get through....I'm up for a good challenge. It took me 3 months to reach my 10% and I'm hoping to reach this next 10% loss in at least 3 months.

I'm also hoping this goal will keep me focused through the holidays. More on that later...

Overdue good news.....

This is a little over due since my last weigh in was two days ago. I have been thinking of posting but I've been super busy working on a power point for my daughter and three of her friends who are celebrating their 16th birthday with a group party. I volunteered to put together a power point for each one of them...yes, I'm a little stressed.

Anyways, I weighed in on Saturday and I am thrilled to say that I have lost -3.8 pounds. I also lost a daily point because this weight loss took me into a new, lower "decade". What do you call it when you go from the 270's into the 260's??

I had gotten to this weight 31/2 years ago and then got pregnant. I ended up miscarrying and my body went into a tail spin and I ended up gaining 40 pounds.

I am hoping with all that I've been learning that I will NOT see those higher numbers ever again.